the possibilities are endless.

As i was looking for a long list of cliche's, i stumbled upon this.

"We’ve all heard the expression: There’s plenty of fish in the sea. Well, whoever invented that saying should have clarified that a “good catch” is rare and rather difficult to find. Yes, there was a time when I thought I caught the best fish in the sea. However, after just one year, my fish slipped out of my hands, jumped back into the water and swam away. This was three years ago. Since then, I’ve been fishing but haven’t found the right fish for me. Over the last three years, I’ve caught some fish, but most of what I reeled in was short-lived disappointments. I have even tried new places and different kinds of bait, but I’ve remained unsuccessful."


OH boy is she right. You see, there's this boy, Paul, and he's a royal douchebag. I won't bother to go into detail, he really doesn't deserve the recognition. But trust me, ladies and gentlemen. He is indeed, one hell of a douchebag. His friend, Clinton, whom I also talked to quite a bit, and grew quite fond of, is possibly an even bigger douchebag than Paul. But I digress. These two boys lied. Or one of them did. Or neither of them did. Either way, I was deceived, and I didn't like it. Not one little bit. I was completely livid, and I turned to another person I had been interested in for comfort, just to find out not only was he interested, but he also didn't want to complicate things, and "wasn't one for relationships" and "doesn't like to get feelings involved" and "all for fun, but without the emotional entanglements." First, you could've simply said "no, i'm not interested like that." I would've understood. Yeah, he's on my shit-list too.

So, yet again, i've found myself alone. Completely alone. I mean, there is the boy that would do anything for me, even though he knows that i do not like him that way, and there's the boy that's loved me literally for seven years. But, there's something holding me back. I don't know what it is, but i just can't settle for either of these guys.

I guess I feel like there's gotta be someone else out there.. someone that I don't have a history with, but will still accept me as I am.

Hell, I need to find out who I am, first.
UGH, I just wish I could figure everything else now, i hate this guessing shit.